dilemma of a shopaholic.

salam~ :)
being pokai is the last thing i want to be right now. i shud be saving money shouldn't i? ==''
everytime i got my paycheck i'd feel like saving it, but evrytime, EVERYTIME i spend it all on a shopping spree. its not that im a shopaholic or anythg, i mean, shopaholicers buy unnecessary things and i dnt do that. i always buy the things i really2 need. like when i gt my frst paycheck, mom took me to this really cool boutique and i bought myself 3 new clothes and a dark blue trousers. i didnt spent that much money on it (okay i did but they're really cute!) and i do need them. i was run out of clothes to wear. besides, they weren't that expensive. it is the cheapest boutque i knw out there. my 2nd paycheck. lets see....i cant really recall what i did to those money. well, i went out a lot that month and mybe i spent it all there. gah! i cant remmebr! but i did buy a new plaid blouse tho. it was on a 50% sale at Nicole.  i know its another garment in 2 months but, clothes ARE essential my dear. we NEED them. besides, i have a good eye in fashion. why waste it on nt buyin anythg?? huh?? besides, it is a Nicole. Nicole is like super xpensve but i gt that fr just half of its prce! means that im good at bargaing arent i? im a good shopper. but why does my money keeps on dissapearg?? =.=''
and finally last month. march. what did i buy with a hundred. lets see, i bought prepaid a lot tho. since my mom insisted in me buyin them myself. but! but! gah! hw could she!!!
march.march. march. come on nies! remember! what did you buy aside frm prepaids! yes, movie tickets and lunch wth frens. =='' gah, i did went out 6times fr movies last month. wth frens, famly and cousins. aiyo~ i should stop. and all of the one hundred's gone. no sving or anythg.
now its the beginng of april, my mom gave me my 4th paycheck a week ago, and i'd already spent half of it. i didnt regret anythg i spent it on tho, it was worth it. i didnt buy any new clothes. just some undergarments fr mu use in unvrsty. and lunch wth frens and a brthday prsnt. :)
but yesterday, i went to the senada sejiwa thngy and i spotted a really awesme unique lookin necklace wth a shape of an owl i  really want to buy it!!!!!!!!!! =='' its nt like im into ncklace or anythg but its fr a great use. the chain's super long and the owl is super big enough to be spotted. i could wear it wth my selendang even! i want to buy it!!!!! (jumpg up n down) gah...but i should be saving. so. apa? :"(